Today, in the midst of a few crazy "life choices" a friend turns to me and says - 'its all good'. Even though I am horribly uncomfortable right now, a bit angry and not entirely sure where I am going, I know that it is where I am meant to be right now, that it is not a bad place to be.... it's just a little spiky.
And i guess it is times like this that allow me to settle into the old pattern, the usual bit of God that I know. Or I can push further and discover how much He wants to carry, and how much I am willing to let go. Having almost reached the cliff edge, there is no holding back now.... I may aswell see how fast I can run and how far I can jump.
The question is - where do I land, and what do I do when I get there?
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Saturday, February 07, 2004
Wrestling with God....
one of the best books I am reading at the moment. Almost like it is written for me, right now. But well written because it talks about God, outside of religion, outside of the boxes where we think He can be controlled. Outside of all our expectations.
I guess that is why I am chasing Him, why I am willing to let go of some things, and dig into others. I am at that point where crazy things are being asked of me, and yet when it comes to the crunch I am happy to give up what I think is good, in order that He can give me the best. So when your running, you can either skid to a stop, or just keep on going, breathless and tired, straight over the edge... and see what He's got for you.
It's bound to be unexpected, unbelievable and yet what you have been asking for in the first place. Just somewhere deeper, unknown.
I guess that is why I am chasing Him, why I am willing to let go of some things, and dig into others. I am at that point where crazy things are being asked of me, and yet when it comes to the crunch I am happy to give up what I think is good, in order that He can give me the best. So when your running, you can either skid to a stop, or just keep on going, breathless and tired, straight over the edge... and see what He's got for you.
It's bound to be unexpected, unbelievable and yet what you have been asking for in the first place. Just somewhere deeper, unknown.
and so it continues
So.... this blog idea has been in my head a while, but only now do I have ideas to put on it. It seems the time has come for the thinker in me to appear, and hence this space to air some of the thoughts, and process some of the adventure which I am currently walking.
I am no computer geek ( a few levels above a dork, so I am told) so this blog will be simple in the extreme. But why complicate things.... life is trying hard enough without giving it any help.
I am no computer geek ( a few levels above a dork, so I am told) so this blog will be simple in the extreme. But why complicate things.... life is trying hard enough without giving it any help.
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