oh my - its been agaes. sorry dear readers.... poor form on my part.

well its saturday, sunny outside and i am sat here doing my emails and blog..... all because i have a stinker of a cold!! I got it 2 weeks ago when i took a girl from school to hospital, and caught what she had on the way. But after a week of being ill it went, so i did my normal anna thing - oh a week of half term, lets run around and see lots of people, rather than rest and chill out!!!

and so the cold returned to bite me bum! pants!! literally...

so not much to report. but i now have a permenant job, being a teaching assitant!! Sweet, 8 weeks paid leave!!!!
I do really love it but sometimes is so hard. Take friday for example. It started with me feeling ill anyway, but by second lesson stuff was not going well for one particular girl. Lets call her, Her.

I have a real soft spot for Her. She has a messed up home life, and some fairly complex emotional probs.... but i have soft spot for Her none the less. But then she punches a girl in class and continues with bad behaviour til she is taken away by a duty teacher.... she has only just got back from a break from school, and the time away has not helped her education or intergration with the other girls.

it just really sucks. and what i have to keep rememebering is that its not my job to try and help her with her problems. Just with her Maths. I couldn't even though I want to - she needs people with skills and training that i don't have.
maybe i'm not communicating this very well - it was frustrating not being able help more, not being able to communicate the potential that i see in her, beneath all the other stuff. when other people, so many times, have just wanted her out, somewhere else... its sucky.

also i have a fuzzy, cold head, so words aren't quite making sense.

on a different note - anyone seen any of the planet earth series - amazing!! How they do some of the shots i just don't know. But also - its just amazing to see the amazing earth God made, totally extravagant and seemingly ridiculous (pigmy sea-horses!! Who knew!!).

Perhaps they should do something like that for the wildlife of London. Was in the tube with a pidgeon a few days ago - it was in the train!!! Quite happy to knick a lift, it had lost its claws after all.

anyway I am going to watch some more now, while drinking smoothie and eating chocolate raisins..... i am ill after all.