Holiday Joy

in days of holiday, after a mad last few weeks of term where your feet ache from running around all day and you can't take any more internal politics and moaning, you realise the pure bliss of being able to sit quietly and complete a full train of thought. There is the added joy of spring time sun, amazon ordered 2nd hand books and hot cross buns at any time of the day!

Am loving having a chance to read books, esp about my current topic and focus for the future, central Asia.... the geopolitics over the last 200 years are amazing - a complete mush!!(which yes, we did have a hand in unfortunately).

Another fun, slightly surprising thought from this week is - I had not realised that I had this fear that one day the Lord was going to decide that I was in fact a total plonker and obliterate me completely. This meant that I had vague fearful ideas whenever i entered into his presence, but never entirely sure from whence they came.

This week however, being able to have some quality time with the Lord, he kindly informed me that has never been his plan to blast me from the face of the planet with a wave of his mighty hand, but he is infact quite fond of me, and enjoys my company.

And it is quite fun to realise all this - brings a great rush of freedom with it...

Who would have thought, after 7 years with the Lord, finally discovering I am forgiven.