I have been wanting to blog for days but my words keep getting in the way. But having written reams of words, after being told, 'just put your pen to paper and let it happen', i feel it is less of a problem.

I am back in manchester seeing friends and verging on dreaming dreams. Something in the writing realm has exploded so I am happily occupied writing and listening. It seems quite chilled as I am not going out of the country for a few weeks at least (I am waiting for a new passport), but I am realising the importance of relationships and investing in them when I have the chance.

Waited for an hour and a half for a bus. It was very cold. boo.

Also still very much thinking over what i saw in Uganda, and the camps of people fleeing the civil war. I am happy to say, it is not something i can shrug off easily while living my comfy life over here.
but more on that later.....

Did you know there is no VAT on cake!! How cool!! Although, it did mean that the makers of the fab Jaffa Cake had to go to court to prove that they were cakes, not biscuit. (cakes go hard over time, while biscuits go soggy, obviously!!).

Oh dear, it makes me laugh and cry all at the same time.
Especially when in contrast to the above paragraph.

Its a funny messed up world......

winter sun

God was having a good day when he decided that all year round the sun would be availible to recharge the batteries and top up the tan! I am currently loving the ugandan sunshine!!

After last post, God showed me how much i needed a rest, and as such i have finally managed it. which is great. He has also done a bit of a spring clean on my head, as it seems that ideas which were workable for 2004, are indded not meant for 2005!!! So i am enjoying having my hopes raised, and my dreams reignited.

It really feels like i can breathe here.

Although i still don't have a v clear 'purpose' for 2005, i think this is just meant to be a day at a time journey, seeing him, and his abundance in the everyday small things. If i can't see them, and recieve them there, then when He does the massive world changing things that i know he wants to, i will just be walking on by, asking him why he is not moving!!!

I am looking forward to be amazed this year, amazed at his bigness and abundance. I am looking forward to more freedom, more joy and lots more love. A week ago, i didn't think i could know any of that. I didn't really believe that the god i knew in 2004 would do that. But now i know that is what this year is going to hold, because god is not one of years, but of love and journeys which never really have strainght paths.....

africa

well on my travels again after a long break (other than to see the folks)...

its january and its hot and sticky... perfect.
had a fab day with my feet in a pool, drinking an iced drink and having really good conversations with friends i miss. was perfect.

Am really looking for purpose or something for 2005, but am currently being told just to chill and let Him find me, rather than do my western searching thing.....

so tricky, but enjoying His biggness at the mo.

55 secs left. must dash.

for those who might be interested, poo is all fine. x

travels to the sun

well on my travels again after a long break (other than to see the folks)...

its january and its hot and sticky... perfect.
had a fab day with my feet in a pool, drinking an iced drink and having really good conversations with friends i miss. was perfect.

Am really looking for purpose or something for 2005, but am currently being told just to chill and let Him find me, rather than do my western running, being busy thing. life takes on a different pace here. still not used to it.
I am finding it quite strange that god is quite so 'here', i.e. accessible without a push. it completely disarms me when i turn to find him. I am looking expecting to see him a bit of a way away, when actually he may be sitting there next to me.... good. but unnerving.

Just realised this is the first blog of 2005, so happy new year. I have no idea what it holds for me, at all. I have nothing in my calender (yet, famous last words) and it feels v fuzzy. But i am looking forward to a year of joy, grace and favour (the no 5 thing...) after last years push and tears.

Exciting news though, my parents are hoping to return from the middle east after about 10 years over there. Its sooo time for them to come back and do normal things, like the garden or something. But may be a little wierd, knowing they are just a train away, rather than 5 hours away.....

so, a year full of empty space, but lots of potential. maybe for now, i'm just going to take one step at a time. otherwise i might just get scared.