hello 2007!!!

sorry its been a while but what with the 'tinternet down and lots of running round, i only just got the chance.

generally v much looking forward to this coming year - one of fun, rest, vision and enjoying having a wage....

and so far i have seen much of the above. I went shopping - for clothes, real clothes that i chose and like with no holes and in a style that i like. lush!!!!

i have also been to the ballet - the male version of swan lake at sadlers wells in london. totally amazing. never seen a ballet before, but it was beautiful - the combo between the music and the visual dancing/movement thing - great!!!

so I look to 2007 with hopes and an increasing sense of joy. It feels blank, but not in a bad way, in a surprise me, sort of fashion.

I think my reflection of 2006 could be "failure is an under-rated success".

So many times in the last year i have felt like i failed, falling flat on my face.

But failed in what - generally nothing other than my own high expectations, or one i falsely think other people have. Even if they did - should i be that worried abouot them??

For me, my "failure" helped me see where my aim was not Jesus, or my expectations wrong. It also helped me realise, its not fatal.... if anything i know more now then i did then.

And in London we do a good job of defining people by their successes or failures - i don't want to see things that way. But if i have to be seen that way then maybe it should be as someone who did fail and fall, but was forever trying to get back up.

I also realised Jesus never sees failure the way we do..... when Lazurus was dead in his grave - Mary and martha saw it as failure and massive dissapointment, Jesus saw it as opportunity.

When people saw the cross they saw failure, even Peter. But now we see eternal Hope.

funny old world.
Nice to be in you 2007. sorry for the belated welcome... xxx